January 25, 2018 Chris had a reputation, (by name – Twisted), that he could not let go. He felt if he did he would be letting those down that looked up to him. Basically those in the gang affiliations.
We got 1/2” of ice on the inside of our windows
January 25, 2018 I tell Roy hi! Every time I go to showers. He’s bundled up like a Tibetan monk, because it is so cold. My ceiling leaks when it rains, I sleep on the floor under my table with my blanket over it and bundle up in double thermos and knit caps. It got down to 9 degrees regular …
As for finding a willing participant for How Love Wins
January 25, 2018 I have nothing but gang affiliations of both ethnic groups and drug addicts that are smoking weed, K2 and Ice, constantly. There’s cell phones, alcohol, cigarettes that the smoke chokes the shit out of me. And crazy people that start hollering and screaming for no reason
Prison Assassin who reads Saint Badass
John – He is the one who is called a prison assassin – will do things to guards or prisoners for money. Assassin “Bull” – Man as soon as I picked it up I could not put it down. I heard Bruno saying he had a book and he helped write it so I wanted to check out his life …
John reports on seeing Roy
April 4, 2017 Roy looked bad. Smiling, but all hunched over, drawed up, limping on his cane. It brought tears to my eyes to see a man I knew for so long, waste away in his condition.
John – Prison is a blessing
February 22, 2017 I bet when you read this you thought the writer must have lost his senses. Besides other expletive words that crossed your mind or voiced orally to yourself or those around you. On the contrary though, do I say this. First, I must state that, I don’t mean this for everyone in the world. Two, I do …
John – This too will pass
July 7, 2017 I want to tell you of a true story. It comes from AJAHN BRAHM. The new prisoner was afraid and very depressed. The stone walls of his cell soaked up all the warmth; the hard iron bars sneered at all compassion; the jarring collision of steel, as his cell door closed, locked hope beyond reach. His heart …
John – Loneliness
Older letter from John: Well Doug, Linda – prayer does work. Friday the 4th, I got a card in the mail with No return address. But, it was from my Mom. She said that she loves me. Always have and God loves me more. You know what my reaction was? None. I felt nothing. I thought to myself, why? After …
John – This moment of life
Older letter from John: Looking forward towards something used to be a, no, was the anticipation of something wonderful happening. Now over time I have realized that being alive here and now, is the greatest of all feelings. Because now in this moment I am alive and able to enjoy all feelings. All emotions. I do not know when I …
John – Anger is in their nature
Older letter from John: When I was imprisoned in the world, to the world. Sex, drugs, alcohol, hatred, crime – these were the chains that held me. My self-made prison was built by these blocks and mortared in my beliefs, that these are what made me. Nothing else could satisfy me. And yet, these never satisfied me. It was a …
John – 7×10 space for living and dying
June 2017 Doug I want you to order the movie – (LIFE) –. It is part comedy, but understand the significance of life in prison on those living here. This movie is about (2) guys that are innocent of the crime of murder, and sentenced to life. You need to watch it. Eddie Murphy plays – Ray Gibbson and Martin …
John – Our True Purpose
June 2017 When a person[s] choose to help others in life, what is their true purpose behind it? When I first started in this life I thought, “Don’t nobody really care about me, so why should I care about them. They all play their little games, acting like they are my friends or they “love” me. B/S. So I played …
John – Darker than dark
May 15, 2017 As for me…well how to begin. Change of life? Tired of life? Tired of being so lonely? Tired of the world and/or all the hate I feel emanating from it? Maybe a mixture of it all and more. If not for C.Q. (Chris Davis), I believe I would of gone mad already. I express loneliness such as, …
John in Solitary
Older letters from John Just got off behavior control. What they do is put in solitary confinement with your boxer shorts and one blanket with the blowers on full. That all you get. Nothing else. No Beanie. No shirt. No socks. No shoes. Nothing. No soap. No toothpaste. No cups. Nothing for (72) hours. I bundled up in a ball …
John’s thoughts on changing and going forward.
June 2015 I got a letter just Saturday from a young man in here who I mentioned to you in 2009. He was the one I spent 60 days in the Hole with who was always getting whooped by the police because he refused to bow down to them. He is the one who said he’d rather spend the rest …
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